God is awesome!!

I got some really amazing news today: I got accepted into the School of the Heart at the TACF SoM [Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship School of Ministry]. As soon as I found out, I immediately ran into the computer room and told my mom. You can probably imagine that she was pretty excited. So am I. I can barely think of what to write, I'm so ecstatic about going. My hands is shaking as we speak. And then I emailed everybody I knew about my acceptance. I guess I should've called my friends first, but I am so overwhelmed right now that I can't speak [otherwise I'll start crying and won't stop]. Ah well. Hopefully they'll understand. This is like a belated birthday present for me, and it probably is; a birthday present from my Daddy [God].

With the excitement comes a real strong sense of fear. I am entering into a new season in my relationship with God, and like every new beginning, it's kind of nerve-wracking. I know it's crazy to be scared because God will be with me, but that's how I feel. I mean, I'll be gone for approx. 4 months and it'll be the first time I'm on my 'own', and I'm feeling nervous about it. But I know I can do it because God is with me and through Him, I can do all things. I'm an introvert by nature [but God is slowly but surely changing that] and so I'm already feeling kind of shy. All I really have to say is this:

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bitter and angry

I've been watching CNN's Anderson Cooper report on Hurricane Katrina practically since the day is landed on U.S. soil. I've been watching the tears, I've been watching the rescues, I've been watching the constant footage of flooded New Orleans for as long as I can remember. And the thing that gets me the most? Is the very obvious, and very blatant, disappearance of Mississippi, and other areas that've been hit the hardest as well. Where are they? Where are the kept promises about not giving up on the Gulf Coast? There is more to the Gulf than just NOLA [New Orleans, LA] you know, and while NOLA does need help still [and who wouldn't, if the city is still looking as if Katrina came tearing through the city three days ago rather than nine months] there are worse places that need attention. For instance, Biloxi and Waveland. Both in Mississippi, and both in dire need of help. Little known fact: Katrina originally was on the fast track heading for New Orleans when at the eleventh hour, it took a right and totally and [almost] completely demolished the coast of Mississippi. Yes, CNN is still reporting on the effects of Katrina, and yes, they are keeping us updated about the victims, but all of those newstories are about the Big Easy and its people. I want to know more about the other victims, the victims in Mississippi and wherever else the hurricane hit: How are they doing? Are they coming back into the swing of things? How had Katrina changed them? Precious lives have been lost, and those who've survived are still picking up the pieces of their destroyed lives and homes...literally. It's bloody ridiculous! And you know what? If a hurricane ever landed down into New York City, or L.A., or even San Francisco, help would've come within two days, if not more, and hardcore rebuilding would've started months ago.

But hey if the government, whose biggest purpose is protecting the American people, wants to act as if the Katrina Effect was a three-ring circus instead of a catastrophe then that's their choice. Then again, what do I know? I'm only Canadian. I will gladly and freely admit that I have no concept of the American government at all.

Any questions, comments, and/or observations, please email me.